Yesterday I had my annual check up at my OBGYN. Not the most pleasant thing to do, but when you've had three babies in three years, you get to know the doctor, office, and staff pretty well. I have had my Dr for about 6 years. She is in San Francisco, and though I live about an hour away, I will keep her as long as I can.
As I sat in the waiting room yesterday I felt a little sad. My husband & I have decided three girls is enough. There is still a little desire inside of me, however, to have another baby. As I looked around the waiting room I saw 4 women who were visibly pregnant. For me, that was such a special time. I really enjoyed being pregnant. The feeling of holding your baby for the first time is priceless. (The six months of sleep deprivation that follows .... not so much)
I know many people struggle with the thought of "how many kids should we have". We all have our own reasons for stopping (or not stopping). I have talked to people who say, "We wanted one (or two, three) and then that was it!" They don't seem to waver. I don't have a number, though I thought I would be fine with three .... four just sounds nice. It just isn't realistic for us. Maybe this is the reason I am struggling with the idea of stopping at three. Even my Dr mentioned that she didn't feel I was 100% done. How many kids do you have? Why did you decide to stop? Do you still "want" more, but won't because of "logical" reasons that override feelings?